My New Crush

I'm obsessed. I'll admit it. I spend all hours of the day thinking about it. I stay up late thinking of what might happen next. I analyze every tiny detail. I ran over the typical "what if" questions. Will it be a pleasant experience? Do I really want to enter into a new relationship that takes up so much time? Am I supposed to go on a mission?

We both dance. We both love music. The thing is, my crush seems to have a relationship with every girl on campus! It doesn't really make me jealous. In fact the more people that have less to do with my crush than others, the more jealous I am. Does that make sense at all? And then there is the time commitment. I don't have enough time to have a crush! And yet I do. I admit it. I have a crush.

His name? .... Schoolwork. Last night I lay in bed thinking about today. I lay there for 2 hours before I fell asleep. My wonderful roommate Audrey finally brought in some herbal tea to calm my nerves. I kept thinking about the tiny details that needed to get done. I kept thinking about all the things I could not and would not forget. I kept thinking about how much better I am going to do this semester. I didn't do terribly last semester, but there is room for improvement. :) I have class every morning at 8:00 am. That's insane. My Sophomore year, I had 8:00 classes and I vowed I would never do that to myself again. And yet, here I am. I'm doing it again. I'm already tired and it's only the first day. I have auditions to go to. I have a TON of homework already. I'm going to help teach in a kindergarten class on Wednesday. There's a lot to do and not enough time to do it. Even if I don't sleep ever... I don't have enough time to do as much studying as we've been advised to do.

Life is crazy. But isn't it fun to have a crush again?